Resolutions

OK. we all make them. So here are mine....
Personally- I am going to work on listening more, talking less and trying to find the
good in everyone... yes, everyone, well....maybe not Bush. Hell, even him.
I bet he can do something right- like make a mean bean dip.
Financially- Before years end both businesses will be in as much full swing as they can
be.
Maternally- Try to always remember that my main goal in everything is to raise two boys
who feel loved and who easily love - people and life in general.
Globally- Decrease the impact. My biggest obstacle in trying to make our home a little
green is clothing. Gladly take any suggestions from the ...audience? I find
buying organic cotton or renewable resource clothing almost impossible for a
family. My husband dresses for work- not even on the radar in anything
remotely environmentally friendly. My kids outgrow clothes before I get them
home from the store. Who can afford that all in organic. Plus, with two
toddlers, my clothes are pretty much disposable. This will definitely be my
biggest challenge.

Getting started

I've actually started laying the groundwork for the 2 small business ideas. Researching, ordering, creating samples. It is all moving in a direction, rather than sitting like a puddle to be stepped over. I can feel my own energy shifting. Now if I could just shift the energy of those around me.

Starting A Blog

This blog is one of hopefully many steps I will be taking to regain, or at least incorporate a little, an adult existence. I have spent the past 41/2 years home, raising my two boys. I don't feel the need at the moment to go on and on about the endless joys of motherhood -which there are many. My focus here is on finding a life beyond- perhaps regaining some of the old and definitely adding some new. Pre-babies I was a NYC teacher. Although I loved teaching, my youngest is only 18 months and I have no desire to ship him off to daycare yet. So going back to my old life, old identity, even many of my old friends, isn't fully possible. But there still has to be something that fits, that uses an adult brain without sacrificing the priority of child raising. I find my lack of intellectual stimulation is causing me to be bored with many things I previously enjoyed. I feel myself less interested in the same old mom conversations. Less sure of who I am and what I want to say or do in life. I have always been a rather focussed, success driven person. After being home for a few years I find myself sitting on several side projects, two of which are small businesses well into the planning phases, without the motivation to complete anything. I feel like I have been mentally sidelined and I'm not quite sure how exactly to get back into the game- or which game I even want to play. I know I am not the first woman to feel herself slipping away into the cloak of motherhood, nor will I be the last. It gets even the best of us. My hope that is if I have a place to report to, bounce ideas off of, I will keep my quest to remain a whole person a priority and not let it slip down the list of things to do below the laundry.